Can't even imagine...

Have you guys heard about this little miracle?? Go read about it, and make sure you have tissues near by. Makes me want to hug my sweet boys and never let them go. Also makes me eternally grateful for a loving and merciful Father in Heaven. Thanks Mrs. R for spreading the word.

Bye-bye binky

Sayer during our community room clean up. This kid loves to help clean and pick up toys. He had so much fun washing the legos, and didn't mind a bit that his shirt was soaking wet from the task

We got rid of Sayer's binky tonight. I have been telling him for a few days that we were going to throw his binky in the garbage tonight, and he has always responded with an enthusiastic "o-tay", so I thought I had sufficiently prepared him. Well, first of all, it was a hectic night with friends and tantrums, so maybe I should have postponed it a day or two. But I decided to just do it. I cut the tip off and let him have it. He promptly said "uh-oh" and cried a little, and stuck his finger in the little hole. He tried to make it work. Then I said we needed to throw it in the garbage because it was broken. He said "no". But, we eventually made our way to the trash shute in the hall, and he finally put it in there and we let it go. It was traumatic. He cried. He kept crying... for about 10 minutes after we put him in bed. Then it got quiet. Then we heard laughing and playing. Then Asher and Sayer got in trouble and Asher lost his sesame street viewing privileges for tomorrow morning. Then it got quiet again. Then there was more playing and laughing. Nate tried to take care of it. No offense to Nate, but he just doesn't have the authoritative voice sometimes. He came out and said they weren't tired and that they were both happily playing with toys in their beds and reading. I said "well that's not happening". So mean mom goes in, takes away toys and sippy cups and books. Sayer screams at me and then receives a little flick on the mouth. When I went to apologize and kiss him, I noticed that his face was covered in blood. Apparently he got a bloody nose at some point during the hour that he was crying and goofing around with Asher. (and no, it was not from the little flick I gave him, promise) I took him to the bathroom to clean him up and he kept asking "wha happen?" I tried to explain his bloody nose and that he couldn't have his binky anymore. It didn't help that he kept asking "why?" in his sweet little voice. I finally was able to lay him down, put his blanky over him and give him his baby bear, and walk out with no crying. He seemed like he finally understood that there was no binky, and that it was time to go to sleep. I didn't hear another peep out of them.

So, we'll see how it goes. Part of me aches to give it back to him. It makes me SO so sad to see him sad. But the fact of the matter is, he doesn't need it. He is at the point where he is starting to talk more, and it is becoming a hindrance. I have to take it out of his mouth when we read books in order to get him to answer my questions. When all was said and done tonight, he fell asleep just fine without it. The only problem is, he has it a lot during the day. It really is a comfort to him, and he always asks for it when he is sad or getting ready for bed. But he does have his baby bear, so it makes me feel so much better knowing that he still has something that he loves SO much to comfort him. Hopefully it will just take him a day or two to get used to not having both his baby and his binky together as a pair anymore. Hopefully I will be able to be strong and not give him one of the 2 binkies that I have hidden in the apartment. I can do it. Wish me luck.

**Update**
So, today was ok. During the day is turning out to be more difficult than at night, but he is doing well. We had a tantrum when he woke up, and another one later on in the morning, and then a little crying before his nap and bedtime, but he didn't even really have to cry himself to sleep, he just cried for a minute or two. Tonight went a lot like last night, but I think that has more to do with Asher and Sayer going to bed together, when they haven't been recently. Asher hasn't been napping as often, so he goes to bed at 6pm a lot while Sayer still goes to bed at 7pm. It works out nice. But when they go to bed together, they play and fall asleep later. But then they still wake up at 7 am, so they are both tired, so Asher takes a nap during the day, which means he goes to bed with Sayer. Get it. It's a vicious little cycle. Anyway, that's all. Here's hoping it gets a little better each day.

Snow days

We've gotten some good snow fall in the last week, which means that I was finally able to take the kids out to play! Asher loved it. Sayer, not so much. I think he would have liked it a little more if he had actual snow boots. Instead, he just has rain boots, that came off his feet with his first step in the snow. So that, coupled with his aversion to gloves, did not make for a very fun outing for him. He still looked pretty cute though.

Riverside Park snow outing:

Asher and I attempted a snowman. It did not turn out well. I blame not growing up in the snow. He loved making snowballs though. Would have done it all day if he could.

Sayer, enjoying the snow-plowed walk way

Pretending

The boys have been playing really well together lately. It's not perfect, but they are getting better at sharing and actually pretending together. It has been so fun to watch. Seriously, one of the best parts about being a mom, is watching your kids learn to use their imaginations and entertain themselves for hours on end. It's amazing. I love that these boys are so imaginative. I know a lot of it stems from so much reading. We have been reading SO much lately, which is mostly Sayer's doing, and as a result, they reinact the books and make up their own versions with their toys. It's so great. This is what childhood is all about, in my opinion.

Next to Normal

My sister Jillian is doing student teaching in DC this semester, and had a bunch of school off this week because of the snow and the holiday weekend, so she decided to take the bus out for a little visit. On Saturday, we went to try and get the Wicked lottery for the matinee, and of course, didn't get it. So we walked over to see if we could get Next to Normal tickets. When we got there, we found that they were having a lottery as well, and of course, we didn't get picked again. But we were able to get cheap tickets for that afternoon anyway.

This is a new musical from 2009, and they won the Tony for best musical score. I had heard clips and knew that it was pretty alternative and different from any other musical, but was still really intrigued, although didn't really know what to expect. Well, I loved it. It is kind of a sad story, and a little more intense than your average musical, but the story line was strong and interesting and creative, and actually seemed pretty real. The whole show flowed really well. There were a lot of songs which made it move seamlessly, the harmonies and arrangements were really cool, and the orchestration, which consisted of piano, guitar, violin, and drums, was great. Like I said, it's pretty alternative, so some of it was kind of rock-ish, but not obnoxious at all. The acting was great, I was totally drawn in, and it had a pretty good resolution at the end... pretty realistic I would say. I really, really liked the whole thing, and was pretty pleasantly surprised about that. I would definitely see it again, and would definitely recommend it.

On a side note... this was one of the coldest days that I have experienced in NY. It was probably because we were out walking around so much, and we had the kids with us for awhile, so we really noticed it. I felt so bad, they were so miserable. They never complain about the cold, so you know when they do, it is pretty bad. The wind was what really did it. It said it was 27 degrees, but with the wind, it felt more like 16 or something. Needless to say, I felt like a terrible mother for having them out in such frigid weather.

My kids

So, clearly, it's been awhile since I have posted all the fun stuff that we have been up to. I finally uploaded all of our pictures so that I could write the posts that have been waiting to be written. As I was looking through the pictures, I noticed a common theme with my children... they are almost always either half dressed, looking like little disheveled ragamuffins, or covered in some form of food. Take a look for yourselves...

Nothing like eating grapes on the table. Asher in his undies, Sayer in half pjs, half sweat pants. Yeah, we're a classy bunch.

Snot face, crazy hair, and a red cheek from running into something

Crazy hair

Covered in pomagranate seeds

Asher, playing his "guitar", shirtless

Mmmm, frosting! (By the way, he has no pants on)

Valentine's Day baking

I decided to make cupcakes for Valentine's Day for the kids to decorate as well as give to their friends. They were yummy. I used the yellow cake recipe from Better Homes and Gardens cookbook, and it was perfect and easy. I will be using it again. I used my new pastry tip that Lizza got me to frost them with buttercream. I didn't have a big enough pastry bag to use, so I had to use a ziploc bag, which caused lots of air bubbles. The next ones will be better, but I thought they still looked much better than usual.

With the left over cake batter, I baked a little cake and made cake balls out of it. I got the idea from Bakerella. I thought they were delicious, even though they were a little rich. I think that's actually a good thing, because then you have to stop after just one!

My boys...

Trains are like magic

Enjoying trains with friends. Yeah, they all sat like that for about 20 minutes, mesmerized. I'd say that makes train pretty darn magical.

Crumbs

One day, Nate came home with these...

Crumbs cupcakes. Yeah, they were amazing. The one on the right (mine) was called half baked. It involved cookies, brownies, chocolate, vanilla, fudge, and cream filling. The one on the left (Nate's) is called S'mores. I don't know why people say that Magnolia's is the best, because really, they aren't anything special (the cupcakes I mean). But Crumbs... yum. Those are some cupcakes to talk about. Speaking of which, Nate just called to say that he was right by one down by NYU and asked if I wanted him to bring home a cupcake sampler... um, YES! I'll let you know how they are!!

Awesome Lizza..

As if coming to hang out with us in NY wasn't enough, Lizza had to go and make herself even more awesome by sending us a "happy package", complete with baby toy and blanket, a cake decorating tip that I have been looking for forever, red vines (which I had been craving for a long time... can't find them anywhere in this city. People don't even know what they are when I mention them. Crazy.) Ikea scrub brushes (I may have needed a new one) cars for the boys and mini scriptures with a camo scripture case. You're the best Lizza! Thanks again!

Last Day with Lizza

On Lizza's last day, we went with the kids to the Museum of Natural History. That's always a fun trip to do with the boys. Their favorite is the Whale/Ocean Life exhibit. Afterward we walked a few blocks down to Magnolia's to get an order of banana pudding for Lizza to take home to her husband. Asher and Sayer enjoyed this part of the outing as well!

This is the only picture I got on my camera that day. Lizza got some good ones on hers, but she hasn't sent them to me yet.

We had so much fun with Nate's parents and Lizza!

Central Park

I clicked on a Shabby Apple email today to see the new Central Park line, only to see my friend Andrea posing in all the new dresses. Ha! So random. She's definitely one gorgeous New Yorker, so it's very fitting!

Liberty Island and Top of the Rock

I went with Lizza to Liberty Island and to the Top of the Rock. I don't know about Lizza, but I had so much fun with her. I love chatting and laughing with Lizza. The top of the rock was SO awesome. We went on a really clear and sunny day, so we got some awesome views of the city. I can't wait to take the boys up there so they can get a better idea of the city that we live in. Central Park looks so cool from up there, and I know Asher would love it. After the rock, we went and got some Famous Famiglia pizza (which I love). That was actually another highlight of the day... just sitting there talking about random things while eating pizza and salad and drinking a huge fountain drink of diet coke. The absence of children was also another big bonus. Oh, we also went to Ground Zero on the same day we went to Liberty Island. I still had never been there, so it was neat to see. We also went into the memorial museum which was really great, if you can call anything from that day great.

Overlooking Central Park. It looks so dead and ugly right now. Sad.

Empire State building

George Washington Bridge (our neck of the woods)

Same view as above except I zoomed in on the riverside church tower (which is the tall thing sticking up in the center-ish of the bridge) that is right down the street from my house so you can get an idea where our house is.

Dear body...

Just because you are pregnant, does not mean you need to take every little cold or flu that comes along and turn it into something much worse. Like last semester when you got a cold, instead of just needing to blow my nose, you made it so that I felt like I wanted to die and like I could just stay in bed for the rest of my life. And this last week, it definitely wasn't necessary to turn our little cold into a sinus infection, so now I feel like my head is going to explode and like the top of my nose and eyes are severely bruised. It's all just getting a little old. Don't you think? Please just keep that in mind for next time around. Thank you, and that is all.