3 months already?

3 months old!

I think he looks like his cousin Kadin in this picture

I don't know where the time has gone, but Sayer is already 3 months old. He has turned into such a happy little guy. His tummy troubles are almost a thing of the past, and he loves to smile and coo, and just be content. He is also starting to put himself to sleep for naps and bedtime, which is a dream! He still won't really sleep on a flat surface, so he has graduated from sleeping in the bouncer to sleeping in his carseat. I, of course, think he is absolutely adorable, though I am not biased at all! ;) The pictures above are the only ones where is he is actually 3 months, the others were just too cute to not be shared!

I love this picture! He is looking at Asher, and the look on his face looks like he is thinking: "What, are you doing?!"

Mr. Big eyes!

Just look at that precious face, and those adorable dimples!

In other news...

this kid...

Taken this morning

...is lucky to be alive after today... really lucky. He has been an absolute terror. Infact, he is in his crib, seriously screaming at the top of his lungs right now, making himself hoarse. So technically, he still might not make it to tomorrow. Just kidding, really!! (Don't worry, I would never really hurt my child, lest you think you need to turn me into CPS!!)

He was sick this last weekend with a really high fever for a couple of days, so of course, we coddled him a lot and gave him special treatment... he also didn't sleep very well, so as a result, he is so tired. On top of that, since he is feeling better, I went back to not letting him have his binky during the day (the never ending saga of the "bee-dee"), and he was not happy about that. He has been asking for it all day today and throwing tantrum after tantrum. We went to the library tonight to get some books, and on the way home, more screaming. So I told him when we got home, it was dinner, bath, bed. He was in bed by 6:00 pm. Usually when we do that, he will sleep uninterrupted until morning, but tonight, he woke up an hour later wanting to get up and play, and I was like, "no way buddy!" So he has basically been crying/screaming for the past 3 hours. Well, off and on actually. At first, we started going in there to calm him down, and even read some more books, but then we decided to nip this in the bud, and just let him cry/scream it out. I have really been trying to not give in to his tantrums, as they have been a little more frequent, and I want him to know that they don't produce results. I have also been trying to give extra praise and attention when he is being nice and obeying, etc. He is generally such a sweet little boy, but when he gets mad... watch out!

Ok, so he just stopped! He probably pooped himself out from crying his brains out. Poor little guy. It does break my heart to listen to him crying like that, but I want him to know who's boss!

Just one of those days

This is where Asher has been spending a lot of his time lately... behind bars. In this particular instance, he had just dumped out an entire salt shaker, that had just been filled, all over the kitchen table, while standing on the kitchen table (which he knows he is not supposed to do). 

Yup, that's right, today is "one of those days". Asher has not been a very good boy lately. In fact, he has been quite the opposite. For a while there, he was being such a little angel and was so fun and sweet, but now I think the reality has set in, that there is a new baby in town, and he is here to stay. At first Asher loved Sayer. He got excited whenever he saw him, tried to "help" him when he cried, and all that cute stuff. He will still do all those things when he is in a good mood, but if he's not, poor Sayer takes a beating. Apparently, when I say "do not hit your brother", Asher translates that to mean: "oh, you want me to do that again... with a smile on my face? Ok!" Aaaaagghhh!!!! With this, I have come to the realization that Asher is attention starved (and it was Mrs. Dub who helped me to see that, thanks!). I was starting to wonder what it is that makes having 2 kids harder, and then BAM, the answer hits me square in the face. Attention. Dividing my time between the two so that they both feel loved and appreciated and heard. Poor Asher. It makes me very grateful that we didn't get rid of "bee-dee" yet, as I now understand why Asher is more attached to it than ever. It makes me so sad to think that Asher feels neglected. In fact, it pretty much breaks my heart. But then on the other hand, I feel like Asher is making it very difficult to give him positive attention, when he is screaming or hitting or acting like a crazy child.  The fact that Asher doesn't really talk yet, isn't helping matters either.  How am I supposed to know what "eh-eh" and a high pitched "aagh-aagh" mean?!  Sigh. And I thought today was going to be a good day. I even got up early and read my scriptures first thing, and fed Asher a real breakfast, and showered! Oh well, such is life. Oh, and don't worry that it's 4:30, and I just put Asher down for a nap, which is normally against my religion, but hey, you gotta do what you can to survive the day right? Although, this will only make my day from hell longer... Whatever.  

Motherhood is hard.  It's supposed to be hard.  It is the process that was designed to help us become the people that we need, and want to become.  

This is the lesson that Heavenly Father is driving in to my brain this month!

**  I am pleased to say that after Asher's brief nap, he had a fabulous night.  We shared chicken dinos and corn, with everything dipped in ranch of course!  Then we played and played til Asher dropped.  I do love that kid, tantrums and all.  He really is a sweetheart, and I can't get enough of his hugs and kisses!