Monday, March 31, 2008

4 Weeks...

It's almost 1:00 am, and I am sitting here typing this post to pass the time until Sayer falls asleep (I am rocking his bouncer with my foot!) He's almost there, so hopefully I will be in bed in a few minutes!!

Sayer is 4 weeks today (actually yesterday as it is now Monday I guess). I can't believe how fast the time has flown by. I've tried really hard to savour these weeks when Sayer is so tiny and cute, because they are gone so fast. But sometimes, it really is a struggle to not wish them away to a time weeks from now, when he will not be such a fussy eater, and when he will sleep longer. I totally forgot how challenging the first weeks of having a new baby are, when each feeding takes almost an hour with all the burping and changing, etc. Yesterday was the first time that I didn't have to feed Sayer, as Nate let me go out by myself. I went and saw Penelope (yes, by myself, it was great! A great movie too!) and then went to Costco. Just that little break from feeding, was very rejuvenating. It really is vital for my sanity to get out and be able to do something for myself.

I have also been thinking a lot about patience.  A few nights ago, Sayer was having some tummy troubles, and I found myself getting mad and frustrated.  I have realized that patience is pretty much one of THE MOST important parenting tools.  I've noticed in the last couple of days, since I have been trying really hard to be patient, that I am enjoying Sayer so much more, crying and all.  It is amazing the love you can feel for these little souls, if you just open up your heart and let yourself, instead of being angry that you can't be in bed sleeping.  I really do just want him to feel better, and find that I almost enjoy spending that time with him and being the one to make him feel better... ALMOST!  HAHA.  Just kidding, I really do.  Being a mom is the hardest, and best thing I have ever done!

I also just have to give a shout out to my amazing husband. I am lucky enough to have Nate home most mornings, and he has been kind enough to get up with Asher in the mornings so that I can go back to sleep after I feed Sayer around 6:00 or 7:00. It makes such a
 big difference. I'm already so tired, I can't imagine how I would feel if I didn't get those extra couple of hours in the morning. I can tell that Nate is really trying so hard to be sensitive to how I am feeling and what I need help with, and I appreciate it so much. It makes me realize what a sucky wife I am, I can be so selfish sometimes. I am trying to be better, Nate is definitely such an example to me of service. I love you Nate, thanks for all your help. I couldn't do any of this without you!!!

Sorry for the cheesey-ness! 

Ok, Sayer is asleep now, so I should get to sleep before he wakes up again.  Sorry if this post doesn't make sense at all!  I will post some 4 week pictures tomorrow sometime.

8 comments:

Hannah said...

Motherhood is wonderful, but it sure isn't easy! It gets easier with two when they are just a teeny bit older. You do have a sweet husband!

Josh and Michelle said...

I totally feel you on the patience. Bailey was a little angel until she was 6 weeks old and then she totally changed and cried and screamed ALOT and she was awake at night ALOT. If she was my first baby I think I would have had a really hard time with her and Iwouldnt have had much patience. But I realized that they are not babies for all that long and I really enjoyed our night times when we were completly alone, except for when she was screaming, I had patience for it, but def not enjoyable.

Scott & Lindsay Wells said...

I totally agree with you Morgan! Patience is VITAL when it comes to parenting. That is something I definately wish I had more of but am slowly getting better at (hopefully). It seems like I was just counting down the weeks until Shelby was past 6 weeks because she was pretty fussy all the time. But now that she's almost 4 months I can hardly remember what it was like to have such a teeny lil baby. Now I've made up my mind to try and enjoy every moment--crying or not! Because before we know it they'll be all grown up and won't need us so much. Thanks for sharing your thoughts!

Lindsay said...

From the tired talk, to the frustrations, to the cheesyness, to the patience, to an overall message of love...Man, Morgan, this post SHOUTS "New Baby". And I love every bit of it. You're beautiful.

Becky said...

I agree with Lindsay's comment!!! I was thinking "Oh she has a new baby, it's always an adjustment for the first few weeks!" Hubby's are wonderful aren't they... how do women have babies without that wonderful support!!! Don't worry though, you do plenty for him too, and I'm sure he appreciates everything you do too (especially the whole carrying both your children for nine months!!!)

Lark said...

I totally agree with you on the patience thing. I find too that I have less and less with each new child! Its terrible! This was a good post for me to read though because I need to be more patient! Thanks for the encouragement :)
Its great to have a husband around to help you in the mornings. Parker was around a ton with my first two kids and I couldn't have survived without his help. I was a disaster! Luckily Mimi is my best baby - so good - because Parker is not around much because of work.
Hang in there!

Michal Thompson said...

You are making great use of your time. I do that too- how many things can I do while trying to put this kid to sleep (often in my arms.) Patience is a life long achievement. It seems Dylan is asking for more of my patience each day. I love President Hinckley's conference talk about anger. Isn't it great to have such a wonderful husband!

Amanda said...

I admire you for even braving two before the first one is driving. I'm not sure I'm ready for that two thing, so we're happy with one. Silvester is just a nut, a crazy little nut, and some days I just hand him to Matt, close my eyes and walk away. Oh, and I showed Matt a picture of Sayer and he said he looks like Nate. Can you even tell at this age?